Dating

I have come to the conclusion that I am a dating failure.  I cant be in a relationship more than 3 months at a time.  They all fail.  Is it me? Or is it the crazy people that I am so fond of.  I have had more than my share of heart break, false promises, and paranoia that I don't think I can take it anymore.

So my friend that I have been dating for NINE months tells me,  I think your trying to trap me into a relationship.!!! What?! Trap you why?  I like the way things are the easy going the the whole dating thing, I have routine with you now.  So basically I am the crazy person and your just a immature little boy...afraid of what what the imaginary ghost in your closet.

Knowing you makes me want to change for the better. Understanding you makes me want to tell you all my secrets and relinquish my doubts.

Everyday I am missing you, feels like a void in my heart that I can not replace.  I wonder if you even still think of me?  Wondering if thoughts of me come to mind, from time to time.   Remembering the moments we had in the simpleness of what was.